Eva Amurri is staying true to herself.

Opening up on her blog about how she’s preparing for the birth of her third child with Kyle Martino, Amurri — who is over 37 weeks pregnant now — explained that having her estranged husband in the room with her “wasn’t going to feel right.”

“Our intimacy level has totally changed now that we aren’t a couple, obviously, and in order to really let go and allow labor to progress (especially with a home birth) it’s so important to feel completely at ease in your body and support,” she wrote.