My company recently retrenched two employees.

I still feel very sad that one of them has left today as I have more interaction with him. I really wanted to cry just now when he came and took his stuff.

Another female colleague she cried in front of him. I feel very sad that this would be the last time I saw him. He is a very nice person and I don’t know will I be able to meet such a nice colleague next time.

I actually don’t understand why the company is retrenching him as he is good with his work. It is very scary that the company can fire a person suddenly and the person doesn’t have to come on the next day. The days just felt very gloomy ever since I know he is leaving. I wonder if the next person will be me as my boss has been interviewing people every week.

The day I knew both of them were retrenched I couldn’t sleep all the way until 3am. I feel worried and scared. At the same time, I feel very sad that he is leaving. I wonder if I should start to look for a new job or at least try applying for other job? I am not sure how is the job market now.

I only have working experience in the tuition industry and laboratory environment.

I wonder if it is difficult to find a job in these two sectors. If I knew it is so hard to find a job with biological science degree earlier, I would have studied nursing instead. At least there is high job security, even though the job is very demanding.

I still feel very sad that my colleague had left. Haiz. I feel that I have lost a friend who I can turn to when I have difficulties with work.

May I have a peace of mind tonight.