“Coming here to confess cause my heart really hurts and seems like here is the best avenue.

After I broke off an engagement when I was 28 cause my then bf was sharing different values from me. Now at 32, earlier this year I decided to try for relationship again. I dated this guy and unfortunately we ended as he preferred his gf to be air stewardess model like. All was good but he can’t accept his gf having any meat on her body at all.

So then came now, I recently dated this guy for a while. Things were going fine and we were close to getting into a relationship. So things led to intimacy and he found out that I didn’t told him about my earlier date this year that we slept together.

He was very furious and called me a liar. The next day of our argument, my grandmother had an heart attack and passed on at night that day.

I didn’t tell my current date as he’s very upset with me but I tried to resolve the lying issue with him. But my feelings were out of control and I over spammed him.

He got annoyed and block me from social media and deleted me from contacts as I can’t see his dp from whatsapp and all. He said I didn’t give him time to think and just spamming him.

So I gave him the whole week to think and didn’t went to disturb him while I settled my grandmother wake. After the wake I text him to explain my grandmother passed away but he didn’t reply to me too. Later in the week, I asked him if we could have a talk even if we are ending things.

He said he’s tired of my spamming and want to end things. I tried really hard to get him to forgive me but he said when he found out I lied, he dislike me already and doesn’t want me around at all in his life.

Yes it’s my fault I lied but I’m really sorry for it and it’s in the past. So when I asked him, at least was our feelings real? He said no, just like how you lie about everything. He hated me so much now.

Just wondering, do you guys feel he is just really playing around or at least his feelings was real? I’m so sad the relationship can’t be salvaged anymore thou I really really loved him. I think I should just stay single for life.

I have no more courage for a relationship anymore.”