Is there anyone here who was born to financially irresponsible parents? How did you deal with the sadness/anger of not being able to do anything about it?

The title. I despise my dad. His irresponsible financial behavior throughout my childhood has led our family to poverty and enormous debt.

Not taking up jobs, not trying to do any work or business, just sitting and taking loans to survive. MY father worked in a job only 10 years in his entire married life.

Yes you read it right. Only 10 years. He couldn’t support my education neither my mother’s Healthcare. And now he and mom are my responsibility as I am their single child.

I just want to know if there is anyone here like me. I despise my dad because he didn’t do anything to get me educated to stand on my feet.

He just left his household on me, to run it. I am earning and supporting my house since I was 17 y.o. Till now. Because of this I despise my dad.

He is the reason i couldn’t study to get a higher paying job. I was a very good student. But had to start earning other wise we wouldn’t have survived.

How do you deal with this anger/sadness? Am I wrong to feel like this? This regret is just killing me inside. There is nothing I can do to change the course of my life. Only if I could rewrite my life against my luck.