I met this guy online. I caught feelings for him first but never had the courage to confess my feelings for him because I always believe in guys making the first move.

We hung out and chatted everyday but he never made any moves in showing that he wanted to take the relationship further into the next step. He said he likes to take things slow and his intention on the app was to know more friends while I was looking for a long term partner. So, along the way, I tried to get to know other guys because I do not know if he has feelings for me even though we chatted and hung out with each other everyday. I knew my feelings for him was stronger so, other guys that I went out with didn’t really infatuated me as he did.

One day after a few months we knew each other, he suddenly asked if we could be together. I agreed on the terms of we can try for a month but he broke it off suddenly after 3 weeks because he was already going to move to another city to work and he felt we weren’t compatible and I couldn’t give him what he wanted. He said he might change his mind in the future and still wanted to be friends.

I cried very bad when it ended but I agreed to it because I didn’t want to lose him even as a friend. We continued to chat and hung out with each other after the ‘break up’ until he moved away. But, along the way, he started to do all those couple stuff to me (eg. kissing, hugging etc). I allowed him to because I know I still loved him but it confused me because it gave me the hope that he still might have feelings for me.

I know it was silly for me to allow him to do that and I didn’t confront him about it. The relationship eventually turned into an FWB kind of relationship. He told me he didn’t have any feelings for me. He knew I still loved him and always asked me to let go and move on. One day, he suddenly cut me off because he said he found another. I knew the day would come and I was devastated by the news. I gave my blessings and tbh, it felt like he took my whole world away when he broke the news to me.

I still miss him until today and I know I shouldn’t bother him anymore.