Met a guy on a dating app. After the 2nd date, he said he didn’t like me, and was seeing someone else.

But days went by and he always updated me on his day everyday, we still arranged to meet up, each time ending in intimate acts because he wanted to, hence I consented. I had hope.

On the 2nd date, he told me about his past relationships and that he still miss his ex, but she had already blocked him on every platform hence he couldn’t contact her. He still had photos of his ex on his IG despite friends telling him to delete it, but he defended himself saying that all his past made him who he is today.

His ex wasn’t local, and was married in her hometown, but he loved her and it didn’t matter to him, even though his parents weren’t supportive either.

He was always telling me to work out, his type is very specific, skinny girls. His ex had many kids and he would say that you can’t even tell that she had that many kids from her figure – skinny. He was visibly in awe of her.

I’ve always known that I’m the least of his priority as he always made time for his friends or to do assignments as he’s studying part time, and would always tell me that he’s busy Fridays-weekends.

It’s been roughly 10 weeks since we’ve known each other, but I made the decision yesterday to end it. My last straw was when I asked if he missed me and he said no, the last I saw him was 2 weeks ago, albeit not that long ago, prior to that was >1 month ago, and the meetups would usually be <2hours, since he said he needed to do his assignments. I asked if he liked me and he said he wouldn’t msg me if he didn’t.

My sixth sense told me that he had never foresee a future together with me, and he always say that marriage is not on his cards due to financial constraints. I didn’t mind that he earned lesser than me, but he would always compare himself to his friends and me.

It still hurts as I’m typing this, but I know that what should’ve been would’ve been. :’(

Just a rant because I’ve no one to tell to get this off my chest. Thanks for reading this guys. I hope the ppl who you love will love you back.