I hate how some men treat unattractive women like myself.

I wish I could tell all men I come into contact with, that I know you are not interested in me. I know you do not find me attractive. I know. Believe me, I know.

However, why is it so hard to show common decency? Why is being polite now construed as flirting?

I go the gym regularly. I’ll be on a treadmill near the doors. I see how the front desk attendants interact with conventionally attractive people. Lots of smiling, laughing, asking how their day was, chatting about football, asking about work.

When I walk by afterwards, it’s as if I’m interacting with a statue. I will do a slight smile, with a cheerful “thank you” or “have a good evening” as I’m moving towards the door. Often times they look down at the floor – as to pretend they don’t see me. Or they look towards the door. I usually get no response. Once in a while I will hear a mumble of “good night.”

It’s not just the gym. It’s the supermarket, the library, when I go out to eat, when I go shopping. It’s a never-ending list. It is truly draining to interact with men as an unattractive female.

For the longest time I tried convincing myself I was imagining things. Telling myself things like, “maybe they had a bad day” or “maybe they were busy.” Until I went out one evening with a very attractive co-worker. Our waiter was all over her. However, when I ordered and spoke to him, he wouldn’t even look at me. He only ever asked her if we needed anything, or how our food was, etc.

Anyways. I hate it. I still treat others how I’d like to be treated myself. Even if I get treated like I’m invisible in return.