I’ve had my fair share of toxic relationships that may have left me rather traumatized. Sometimes I’m not sure if my partner is good or bad for me or am I the problem?

2 days ago we fought because he made soup but I’m sure he used tap water (here if full of chemicals and parasites) and when asked him he said he had boiled water earlier, which I know is not true.

I began asking more questions and he told more lies. For something that dumb? Feels like he could lie for other stuff and I’ve felt as it has happen. He got mad at me for “drilling him with questions” and we haven’t spoke since then.

This is added into my mind to other issues we’ve been having and I’m not sure if it’s worth it to keep on trying for this relationship to work of he’s going to lie and I feel he does the bear minimum.

Is it a stupid topic and reason to break up or not?

We’re trying to make it work and I know we both care a lot for each other. It can be he messed up and was scared to tell me but it is giving him excuses if I decide that and he isn’t even speaking to me.

We were going to have a date tonight with my birthday money (we can’t really spend on frivolous things in the day to day because of financial reasons) but now I don’t want to because I found a lot of soda bottles in his desk (we can’t afford that) and a box of burgers (we can’t afford that and even if we had he tried to hide it from me so I wouldn’t know so no share?).

We combine finances and everything I earn is used for us and now I learn about this, he could say it’s from his work tips but even tho we’re struggling and he hide it from me. Am I crazy?