Oh well here goes nothing. I had this huge crush on my friend for years upon years. We would text back and forth during my ns days to even my working days when we were apart. I’ve always knew I liked her, though I never was sure if she reciprocated as I was not as good looking. Fast forward to present day, I was close to running out of money running my business. As a result , I couldn’t afford to hire her. For 5.2k. Also there were other sources of income that supplement this and were the tip of the iceberg. The stock markets hasn’t been really kind to me recently but I still make progress here and there. Tbh I feel at a loss because she was scarred by a previous rs, and I was considered pretty lucky to be able to even meet her again.

She was so similar to me, it was as if she was me but in a women kind of thing. We liked the same athletes, the same shows, the same anime, the same key concerns over people and animals. I did spca posters while she actually went down to the animal centers to help out. I always knew she had a heart of gold.

We even went to checkout furniture at challenger. I can’t believe it. I’m inclined to believe I was at fault most times. And with the piling workload from her work, I knew I had to get her out of there fast.

Tbh if money was no object I wonder if I ultimately ended up with you. Or was I just a door stopper at times. It felt like it. Those are my true honest feelings. Am I more disposable the same way? Please say yes to validate these feelings. I’m sorry I couldn’t provide for you. But even more than that, I hope that happiness will come for you.

We were that close.