The teenage boy who died while living off the grid with his conspiracy theorist mom and aunt wrote a heartbreaking diary detailing how his friends begged him not to leave — and how he feared he was suffering a mental breakdown as he left his old life.

Talon Vance, 14, weighed just 40 pounds when he was found dead in the Colorado Rockies last year alongside the bodies of his mother Rebecca “Becky” Vance, 42, and 41-year-old aunt, Christine Vance, 41, both conspiracy theorists relying on YouTube videosto teach them survival skills.