Educated and unemployed feel bad for my kids

Some change in family situation and a toxic work environment made me quit my well paying job just before covid. ive been unemployed till now.

My kids are in IHL. They feel bad asking me for money but no choice they need money.

I sense them trying their best to stretch their pocket money i feel bad for them. But i lack the will or desire to work because i feel so down for all the crap in the past and also my age almost 50.

I need to find the strength to hustle again because i cant bear seeing my children struggle. Sometimes i think in lieu of my mental struggles, God should just call me home now.

Netizens’ comments

Please get some help, go to polyclinic and get a referral for subsidised therapy at IMH. There’s no shame in getting help for your mental health. You need to stay strong for your kids. You know you are spiralling and that’s a start. Please do something about it and wishing u all the best.

Hi, don’t give up hope. I’m in a pretty similar situation as well (nearing 50, doesn’t enjoy the work that I’m doing etc) but not giving up hope becos of my kids. Hang in there…. like what most of the ppl have suggested, start off with some part time work to pick up the momentum then move to contract or permanent when you’re ready, try out something new perhaps if you’re sick of your old job? stay strong for the people you love and the people who love you

So , first you resigned n said you feel bad for your kids and then you contemplated leaving this earth and then your kids will be parent-less . If you really spare a thought for your kids then reflect upon what kind of support are you providing them , do you think backup money is enough? So how will they feel being young , dependent and without a parent’s presence ? Come on lahEveryone has to take up their load and carry it in life and nobody gets to escape and find an easy way out ( at least you think someone ELSE has it easier but they don’t )Step up for your kids and do better !Start by charting an exercise routine everyday start 10 minsNow you have a lot of time right ? Then at least use this opportunity to get your health better ( yes so we won’t be a health burden to our children)Once you exercise and the happy hormone level rises meantime get some side hustle and focus on getting the new role . Apply 100x .All the best ( and pls lahh hcw v busy don’t add to the hospital queue tks lol ) if really need just get a mental health rv at GP 2.