Found out my dead husband was cheating on me with my best friend

In 2014, I met my future husband at work and after a year of dating we got married. I soon introduced my husband to my friend whom was married so we could do double dates/go out as a group.

My friend and I grew to be really close and called each other best friends because we truly were inseparable and I would tell her everything.

Any issues I had with my husband I would ask for her advice and she did the same. When she got a divorce I tried to help her emotionally and later introduced her to my husbands brother, which they later started “dating”.

Fast forward to 2018 my husband passed away unexpectedly in an accident.

Of course, my bff was one of my first calls and she was there for me – or so I thought. I visited my husbands cousin one day, as we talked everything was fine until I mentioned I was going to meet up with my BFF.

He told me didn’t like her (which he always told me, and that he didn’t trust her. I would always play it down). Well, this time I decided to dig in and see why – he explained to my that while my husband and I were married, my bff and him would hook up and had an affair.

I was broken to say the least. I called her to confront her afterwards, and of course she denied everything (looking back she always said “deny everything cus they won’t know otherwise. Never give in” which I always thought was absurd)!

Well, I bluffed and told her I went over my dead husbands phone and found proof and that’s when she finally admitted it.

I felt broken, betrayed and hurt. How could she do this to me because I always talked to her about my issues and she would call me crazy and reassure me that my husband loved me.

Also, how could I be crying over a dead man that could do this to me. I felt and still feel so conflicted over this!

Well, years later I talked to my brother-in-law (bffs ex) and he told me he knew about it and that’s why he broke things off with her. He said that he always wanted to tell me but he was begged not to because my hubby “didn’t want to lose me”.

Well, let’s say now I have trust issues, I sometimes get reminded of this betrayal and hurt myself all over again. I wanted to write this to finally get this off my chest.

I am older now and can’t believe how naive I was, and still don’t understand how two people that tell you they care about you and love you could do such a thing. Looking back the signs were there.