Should I tell him about my past?

I have a high body count(50+) and he doesn’t know about it. We are both in our 20s and I have fallen deeply and irrevocably in love with him.

We met during our first year of university together and I was infatuated with him from the moment I saw him.

The simplest things he did garnered my interest – the way he carried himself with such purpose, or even the way he messes with his hair. He would always be the one answering questions in lectures, with no hesitation or fear of being wrong (which was rare). It was hard not to be attracted to someone with such presence and intelligence.

I crushed on him hard, but at that time he was still in a relationship. I never pursued him because of this (also partially because of how much of a mess I was), but running into him in U town always made my day that much brighter.

Fast forward to the start of our second year and he is no longer in a relationship. I was so timid and introverted I didn’t spot the little things he would do to try and get my attention. Even when he insisted I always work with his group I just assumed it was just out of kindness, rather than anything else.

A few weeks later he invited me out for dinner. I was petrified! Why would someone so amazing want to spend time with me? I mustered all the courage I could and went over to his flat. When he opened the door he looked incredible. He was wearing a beautiful sparkling silver jacket which he’d paired with some suave jeans. It was a look that very much suited his personality that not many people could pull off.

Long story short: we shared a few drinks and talked for what seemed to be a short time. We laughed and joked about the most random of topics. I have no idea exactly what was said that night, but I was enjoying it so much that I never wanted it to end. The next thing we knew it was 6am in his room in what felt like the blink of an eye. He had things to do the next day, so we parted ways. But not before he playfully kissed me and extended an invite for a second date. That was the moment I knew I wanted to be with him. I spent the entirety of my late night walk home grinning like a tool, feeling like I’d won the lottery.

One thing led to another during the next date and I started to initiate physicality. He stopped me and told he was a V and wanted to wait until we were married. I was so crushed as he said love is sacred and he was saving himself for me after marriage.

We moved in together a few months ago and the rest is history. Each passing day we continue to build upon our love. Our love wasn’t instantaneous: it was something we made together and will continue to make into the future.

He has made me a better person – far better than I could have hoped to be without him. I love him tremendously and have nearly forgotten what life was like without him.

He’s definitely one of the best things to ever happen to me.

We always look back to our how we would met earlier in our school days – we were both ACS boys and our paths may have crossed without us knowning.

Unfortunately, I do not know how to break the truth to him. It will crush him and one day if it comes out I fear he will leave me.

Please share with me what I should do.