My crazy living arrangement

I (44f) live with my husband and my ex husband and I couldn’t be happier.

My ex husband and I divorced 12 years ago. We never stopped living together though. J (39m) is a good man, but we divorced after I had an affair.

About a year before the affair he told me he was was not attracted to any genders and had no desires to be in an intimate relationship with anyone.

I took that as permission and thought I had found my perfect mate. Long story short dude turned out to be the AH and walked after I found out I was pregnant.

J loves kids and has been dad to my 11 yr old daughter since she was born. We have not had any sort of a physical relationship since he came out to me.

4 years ago I ran into my school sweetheart and we began seeing each other again. W (48m) has Parkinson’s and is disabled.

We picked up right where we left off when I was 18. I never hid the relationship from J and he in fact encouraged us. We moved in together after a year.

We lived together for a year and then got married. We are approaching our 2nd anniversary. I have never been happier.

My ex-husband is my best friend and my husband is the love of my life. Everything is perfect but my family and friends from the past disagree with my choice and I feel completely alone most of the time.

I have J and W but no friends or family. It’s lonely and I often wonder if I made the right choice. J and W are best friends now and even go out and do things together just the 2 of them.

Meanwhile I rarely leave the house for fear of judgement.